Saturday, October 31, 2009

Maturity begins to grow when you can
sense your concern for others outweighing
your concern for yourself.

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet.
Only through experience of trial & suffering
can the soul be strengthened, ambition,
inspired and success achieved.

Don't be afraid to do things that you think it's right.
You will learn what is life all about.
And you will know what kind of life you will be going through.

3:28 AM

Thursday, October 29, 2009

The feelings sucks.
I felt I was 'useless'.
I didn't know what to do..
I was shock to hear all the different news.
I want to be there for you guys.
But I only ended saying "Cheer Up" , "Don't be to stress"
& "I will be here for you if you need me".
I know the words are not helping.
But at the same time I didn't know what to do.
It worries me to see you guys upset and moody.
I wish I could do something to cheer you guys up.
If there is anything I can do..
Tell me okies?
To A friend of mine:
I heard the news from him.
Sorry about your mom.
& sorry for not saying anything.

5:27 PM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Huz called yesterday.
And he finally found his special someone,
Congratulations (:
Had a short chat with him.
I owe him a big THANK YOU.
Those advices sounds really helpful.
I will try to apply it to my current relationship.

Being attached to Khaalis is one thing I will never regret.

10:54 AM

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Mengenalimu,
Adalah suatu keindahan dalam hidupku,
Kau hadir pada ku saat-saat,
Ku memerlukan mu..

Setiap hari kau menyinari hariku,
Yang suram selama ini..
Dengan gelak tawa & gurauan manjamu,
Membuat hatiku menyintai mu lebih dalam lagi.

Tapi ku sedar siapa diriku disisimu,
Ku bukan gadis yang kau mencari,
& Bukan gadis yang kau mahu memiliki,
Ku tahu selama ini ku hanya seorang teman di sisimu.

Dalam kegelapan,
Perasaan rindu dan kasih sayang,
Akan ku pendamkan...
Itu sahaja yang ingin ku ucapkan padamu wahai Kekasihku.

9:36 PM

Monday, October 26, 2009

Something is wrong with me today.
I kept thinking about Khaalis.
Memories of us just keep coming through my mind.
My heart just began to beat fast thinking about him.
What is wrong with me?
It's like wherever I go.
I keep thinking about him!
What does this mean!?!

8:14 PM

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Truth hurts but it solves everything.

Ever wonder why I sayangkan u seorang?
Walaupun I was never love by u?
There are lots of reasons why I sayangkan you.
But today I will only say one.

I wonder if you realise about this...
When a guy two time for their own reason.
They don't care about the girl's feelings at all.
They just keep giving excuses.
But you were different.
Bila you two time...
You still care about your girls feelings.
You were there for them when they need it.
You are a caring person.
You take precaution of what they wear.
You want them not to attract attention
That shows you are attentive.
There were time where you listen to your girls problems.
And give advices or do things what is right or best for them.
You are being understanding & a good listener.
Even though in my opinion, what you did was wrong.
But you were still a thoughtful person.
That was one of the reasons I love you.
Your character made me fall for you.

In this world no one is perfect,
Nor is anyone is always right.
Everyone makes mistake.
Everyone hurt each other feelings.

You were different from others.
For that I love you for who you are.
I faham bahawa bukan I di hati you sekarang.
I akan doakan satu hari nanti you akan temui,
Seorang wanita pilihan you.
The one you akan sayangkan dia seluruh hati you.
The one you want to go through thick and thin with that person.
Insyallah.

10:34 PM

Friday, October 23, 2009

To: Bibi, Mimi & Titi

You turned my darkness into light;
You made everything all right.
You picked me up when I was down;
You turned my life around.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A blessing is what you are to me.

When I needed you the most, you were there;
Even if it seemed like you didn't care.
When I didn't think I could make it another day,
You chased all my doubts away.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A treasure is what you are to me.

The world is full of many people, it's true;
But there is only one of you.
You fill my heart with love;
You're a God-sent gift from above.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
An angel is what you are to me.

Lost and alone, I will no longer be;
Because you are here with me.
There is no reason to be sad;
You've taken away all the bad.
If I didn't have you, what would I be?
A best friend is what you are to me!!

11:11 PM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Muhammad Khaalis a.k.a Bull

You're the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day.
You are in all that I do,
& everything I say.

You're the smile on my face,
The twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart,
The fullness in my life.

You're my silly, mature, caring,
Thoughtful, Bright & lovable guy.
The one who is always there for me,
& make me smile.

You're the dimple in my cheek,
The ever-constant tingle in my soul.
The voice that makes me weak,
The happiness in my life.

You are all I've wanted,
You are all I need.
You are all I've dreamed of,
You are all of this to me.

10:35 AM

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Quite a lot of things happen today.
So kecoh at my facebook.
Whatever it is.
Please stop interfering; some of you.
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To My Dear Bubbles;
I believe right now he is still thinking about you.
Yes, he may love that ***** more than you.
But ever heard a friendship last longer that relationships?
I believe one day he will be back with you again.
Have trust in him.
& be have lots of patience okay?.
You are such a fun, loving, caring person.
Everybody loves you.
Always stay happy my dear friend
Cheerful & Wacky is who you are (:
Hid, akan slalu doakan untuk you.. Sayang bubbles..

11:08 PM

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I got to admit.
But seriously I am tired of entertaining guys.
Excluding my friends & family.
And the ones who are attached.
I am not trying to say it is wrong to make friends with me.
But I dislike it when they ask to exchange numbers.
To me, once an online friend please remain as an online friend.
Unless I began to get really close and trust you.
And when I exchange numbers.
Please bear in mind that, I won't reply to all your msgs~

Today, someone totally pissed me off.
You know I am attached.
And you still have the cheeks to keep asking me out.
And keep this in mind. I still love him.
Yes.
I got to admit that my guy don't meet or entertain me.
But still I am under the category "ATTACHED"
Oh. One last thing.
Stop being pampered!
I am not your sister, mother or girlfriend.
I close my eye for this time round.
But please don't do that again.

Damn it.
Tired after all that work.
Went to meet Franco after that.
I really apologise for my attitude today.

6:33 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I was on the phone from 12midnight until 4.45am.
After that I slept till 12 noon.
So as expected.
I didn't went school..
In my opinion...
Going to school this days is useless unless got Q's to be asked.
If not better start depending on self study..
Tired right now.
Lazy go MSN and entertain 'some' people.
That's for now..
Shall blog again if I feel like it later.

11:26 PM

Monday, October 12, 2009

I didn't expect it.
I have never grown feelings for others.
I always treat you guys like friends.
I still love my boyfriend.
No matter how much this heart aches.
It's Khaalis whom I think of.
I didn't want to do that.
But I had to do it to avoid you getting more hurt.

To ask or not to ask..
Farhan to be my elder god bro..
Hmms.

10:41 PM

Talked to him on the phone in less than 2 minutes,
& He told me to call him back at around 2 or 3am.
And I did, yet no answer.
What was I expecting?
In that less than two minutes talk,
I said how much I miss him.
I can't believe he thinks that I was talking nonsense.
I had to let this feeling all out.
It's been long since I cried this much.
I understand the situation he is in.
But all I ever ask was just for us to meet even for a while.
Is it so much to ask for?
How much longer am I suppose to keep this feeling?
Khaalis, I am really missing you.
.........................
Farhan accompany me that night.
I didn't told him anything.
All he did was trying his best to cheer me up.
And he did.
I was finally able to sleep at 5am.
Thanks, Farhan...

7:20 AM

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Gosh. Farhan keep pushing me to study!
So far I only study E-maths & A-maths.
Did I just mention A-maths?
Haha. One of the subject that I hate.
Yet I still study about it.
Good right??

Farhan, Faizal, Fadzli, Firdaus, Faieqq, Franco, Faris, Farhanah..
If you guys realize this few close friends of mine
Had their names start with the letter,
'F'.
Why? Why so many 'F'!?!

11:20 PM

Monday, October 5, 2009

All I ever wanted was to talk to you.

7:31 PM

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Missing my Dear Muhd Khaalis.
Nearly 3 weeks never see him.
And in 9 days time it will be our second month together.
Not really worth saying.
But this time I really feel that our relationship is different.
I can't help it but to love him a lot.
...................................................................................................................

Even though it was only for like 3 months.
I still appreciate that friendship.
Yea, you did made me fall for you once.
But my heart is locked only for my guy.

ps: I will see you again before you leave.

8:40 PM

Friday, October 2, 2009

Finally, I was able to quote what Shu said in the movie..

"Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan Matahari.
DIA datangkan petir dan kilat.
Kita tertanya-tanya ke mane hilang nya Matahari,
Rupa-rupanya Allah memberikan kita pelangi."

..............................................................................................................................

Later, going out with Franco Ho.
Help him shop a while.
Well, it's been a while I get a break.
So I guess it's not wrong to hang out for one day.
Gosh, Franco will be the last I hang out with.
O level in 20 more days people.

11:09 AM

Thursday, October 1, 2009

MY NEW IDOL!
Awal Ashaari
Host and a Model
I just love his smile!
Main actor for Syurga Cinta!
*melts*

9:49 PM